Okay, so I made it through day 3 of P90X. I was so sore, I could barely move, so I decided to take a day off... plus I had heard that the yoga dvd was miserable and that's what was next for me... That evening, I had a long talk with an awesome friend who had some pretty poignant questions.
Q - What is my motive with this new workout? Am I trying to "bulk up" or merely tone and get in shape?
A - Tone. I don't need super muscles... not that I think I'd get them anyway
Q - What is the point of going so big then? As in... Why P90X when I've never worked out a day in my life?
A - No idea. It sounded like the thing to do?
Q - What about trying something that I can actually complete, instead of laying in the fetal position on the floor for 10 minutes right in the middle of the workout?
A - Grand idea! Wish I could say I was smart enough to come up with it on my own...
Q - Ever heard of Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred?
A - Yes, and I may be able to get my hands on it fairly easily... on Sunday.
Q - You do realize that if you quit P90X now, you haven't failed? You're doing the smart thing by doing something that you're more capable of...
A - Yet to be determined... because I sure feel like I've failed. I guess I have for sure quit, which would make me a quitter.
So, that's the new plan. I'm going to try something a bit different first. Try to get in shape a little before I try to get in shape a lottle.
I guess it all makes sense. Why go from doing nothing, to working out full bore, 7 days a week, in the most extreme way possible... when I can ease into it... Right?
Am I crazy?
Did she sweet talk me into quitting?
Hello?
Anyone out there?
Did I totally disappoint you guys?
I sure hope not.
I feel at peace with my decision. Stay tuned...
Blessings.
431. Real talk
432. A weekend with no plans
433. A clean house
434. An hour long nap yesterday
435. Craft time today with my big girls
436. Spring Break!!
437. Being led by the Holy Spirit
438. Heart to heart with Miko
439. Holy Week
440. Always remembering the sacrifice of Jesus
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Day #42 - day 2
Okay... I've been a bit apprehensive about posting this, but I'm gonna go for it. Rip it off like a bandaid, right?
Yesterday I started working out.
Well, actually 2 weeks ago, Monday, I attempted and failed.
A week of griping, complaining, whining that I can't do it, motivated me to try again.
So try again I shall, and am.
Which brings me to this post.
I've realized that I was afraid to tell anyone what I was doing, for fear if I failed, I'd look ridiculous.
Instead, I should look at this as part of my testimony (thanks Patti).
I'm going to give it my best, and hopefully after these 90 days of busting my butt, I'll have something to show for it. I mean I WILL have something to show for it. At least I BETTER!
Yesterday was not easy. Today has been rough and I haven't even worked out yet. I have sore muscles that I didn't even realize owned! But at 2pm today, I'm starting day #2.
I've never worked out 2 days in a row before, ever. But years and babies and pounds later, I need to.
I need to feel good about myself for me, and my husband, and my kiddos. That's all super important... but more than that... I need to take care of this body God has given me.
Pray for me. Today at 2pm especially.
-S
Blessings
421. Borrowed p90x dvds
422. Great friends to support me
423. Kate cheering me on as I attempted a push up
424. A summer to look forward to
425. Exciting new things on the horizon
426. Lauren belly laughing as I typed this
427. Grilled out dinners 3 nights in a row
428. A new lawnmower
429. Weeded flowerbeds
430. Possible visitor this weekend
Yesterday I started working out.
Well, actually 2 weeks ago, Monday, I attempted and failed.
A week of griping, complaining, whining that I can't do it, motivated me to try again.
So try again I shall, and am.
Which brings me to this post.
I've realized that I was afraid to tell anyone what I was doing, for fear if I failed, I'd look ridiculous.
Instead, I should look at this as part of my testimony (thanks Patti).
I'm going to give it my best, and hopefully after these 90 days of busting my butt, I'll have something to show for it. I mean I WILL have something to show for it. At least I BETTER!
Yesterday was not easy. Today has been rough and I haven't even worked out yet. I have sore muscles that I didn't even realize owned! But at 2pm today, I'm starting day #2.
I've never worked out 2 days in a row before, ever. But years and babies and pounds later, I need to.
I need to feel good about myself for me, and my husband, and my kiddos. That's all super important... but more than that... I need to take care of this body God has given me.
Pray for me. Today at 2pm especially.
-S
Blessings
421. Borrowed p90x dvds
422. Great friends to support me
423. Kate cheering me on as I attempted a push up
424. A summer to look forward to
425. Exciting new things on the horizon
426. Lauren belly laughing as I typed this
427. Grilled out dinners 3 nights in a row
428. A new lawnmower
429. Weeded flowerbeds
430. Possible visitor this weekend
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Day #41 - Habits
Our sermon at church today was about habits... Good and bad. We obviously have the habit to be in God's Word, to be prayerful, at church on Sunday. Pastor wanted us to realize that this should be a daily, all the time, thing.
I can say that I pray way more often than I ever have. I have learned to at least think about God before I make a big decision or say something ridiculous. I'm working on being the wife, and mother, that the Bible teaches me to be.
Even with all that... I'm strides behind where I'd like to be.
I want to leave everything up to God and place everything in His hands, but when He doesn't do things exactly the way I want them done I grow frustrated. When I feel like we're being led in a certain direction, but then things don't work out as quickly as I'd like, I get angry. When people that I love hurt, I have a tendency to want to fix it without consulting Him.
My habit is to gripe, grumble, complain, decide "I'll do it myself".
Our Old Testament reading today was from Numbers. In looking at Michael's bible tonight, it offers this "theme and message":
It's human nature to want more, to voice our gripes, to complain away. We are all sinful beings. But those, those are all bad habits.
Even in my personal time of repentance this morning in church, my selfishness showed through...
I have a plan for my week. I'm going to focus on forming more good habits. I've made a decision to start my day in prayer and end it the same way. I'm going to pray every time I get into my car to go somewhere and every time I reach my destination. I want to thank God for my trials and for my conquests.
It's the least I can do.
He's got enough to worry about without my whining.
Blessings
401. A healthy family
402. Grilling out yesterday in the marvelous weather
403. Our girls reciting the Old Testament books of the Bible with their Sunday school classes at church today
404. Time for personal repentance and absolution
405. God's forgiveness
406. Our church home
407. A "different" type of service this morning
408. Exploring all parts of the Lutheran Service Book
409. Knowing I am never alone
410. Girl Scout cookies from outside of Walmart
411. Our well-behaved girls at a packed Wendy's
412. A quiet evening with Madeline
413. Our one mile walk
414. Sweating while outdoors in March
415. Miko taking the 2 big girls fishing
416. Lauren's first fish
417. The excitement they showed when they got home
418. Miko's patience in taking both of them
419. All 3 of them looking forward to the next fishing trip
420. Tired girls after their baths, ready for bed
I can say that I pray way more often than I ever have. I have learned to at least think about God before I make a big decision or say something ridiculous. I'm working on being the wife, and mother, that the Bible teaches me to be.
Even with all that... I'm strides behind where I'd like to be.
I want to leave everything up to God and place everything in His hands, but when He doesn't do things exactly the way I want them done I grow frustrated. When I feel like we're being led in a certain direction, but then things don't work out as quickly as I'd like, I get angry. When people that I love hurt, I have a tendency to want to fix it without consulting Him.
My habit is to gripe, grumble, complain, decide "I'll do it myself".
Our Old Testament reading today was from Numbers. In looking at Michael's bible tonight, it offers this "theme and message":
Numbers relates the story of Israel's journey from Mount Sinai to the plains of Moab on the border of Canaan. It tells of the murmuring and rebellion of God's people and of their subsequent judgment. They were condemned to live out their lives in the desert; only their children would enjoy the fulfillment of the promise that had originally been theirs. Throughout the years in the desert, one thing became clear to Israel -- God's constant care for them. Not only did he meet their needs, but he also loved and forgave his people continually. (emphasis in blue mine)
Even in my personal time of repentance this morning in church, my selfishness showed through...
I have a plan for my week. I'm going to focus on forming more good habits. I've made a decision to start my day in prayer and end it the same way. I'm going to pray every time I get into my car to go somewhere and every time I reach my destination. I want to thank God for my trials and for my conquests.
It's the least I can do.
He's got enough to worry about without my whining.
Blessings
401. A healthy family
402. Grilling out yesterday in the marvelous weather
403. Our girls reciting the Old Testament books of the Bible with their Sunday school classes at church today
404. Time for personal repentance and absolution
405. God's forgiveness
406. Our church home
407. A "different" type of service this morning
408. Exploring all parts of the Lutheran Service Book
409. Knowing I am never alone
410. Girl Scout cookies from outside of Walmart
411. Our well-behaved girls at a packed Wendy's
412. A quiet evening with Madeline
413. Our one mile walk
414. Sweating while outdoors in March
415. Miko taking the 2 big girls fishing
416. Lauren's first fish
417. The excitement they showed when they got home
418. Miko's patience in taking both of them
419. All 3 of them looking forward to the next fishing trip
420. Tired girls after their baths, ready for bed
Friday, March 16, 2012
Day #40 - Something out of Nothing
I don't have a lot to say tonight... but I feel like I have to say something. I haven't posted in awhile and it's bugging me...
There are things that I could go into, but because I'm not sure who reads this, I won't (at least not tonight). There are topics that I have plenty to say about, but because I have a headache that keeps on keeping on, I won't (at least not tonight).
Instead, I'll just give a run down --
We're having unseasonably warm weather, and I'm LOVING it! All 3 of the girls have been outside enjoying the sunshine. It's pretty awesome to see them playing together and laughing. I'm so excited for what this summer means to us. We have so much to look forward to and so much to be grateful for.
Kate, Lauren and Madeline were all baptized this last Sunday. It was a beautiful day. The girls totally cooperated. Awesome! We then had a houseful of people here for lunch, which turned into dinner as we all watched the MSU basketball team win the Big Ten title. It was a wonderful day!
Kate is still really enjoying preschool. We had our first parent/teacher conference and that went pretty well. She is very shy and doesn't talk very often, but her teacher is thinking she will outgrow that. She's a smart little girl. Such a blessing. I had the privilege of staying overnight in a sleep lab with her a couple of weeks ago (sense the sarcasm in privilege?). Her test came back positive for sleep apnea, so we have surgery scheduled to have her tonsils and adenoids removed. Poor little monkey. I'm sure she'll be a trooper though.
Lauren is blossoming as well. She's always cracking us up with her wild comments and actress-like moves. She's so animated and clever. She also seems to be testing limits and boundaries to see who is in charge. We're going through some growing pains in that area, but I'm sure we'll power through. We took Lauren and Kate to their first movie this past Tuesday. Lauren's nickname is Lorax (as in the book) and has been for quite some time... Now that the movie is out, we decided (with some coaxing from a friend) to take the girls. They had a BLAST! And I have to admit, Michael and I had just as much fun, if not more. If you haven't taken a little one to the movies, I highly recommend it. It's pretty exciting.
Madeline is crazy, crazy fun, but still crazy. She's really talking and developing so quickly. Her favorite phrase is "all done too" and she's always giving kisses and "ugs" (hugs). We went to the park this week and discovered that she's a total dare devil. She loved the swings, but loved the slides even more. She was up with the big girls on the twirly slide even. The bigger and faster the better. She's gonna be hilarious as she gets older. We have been experimenting with taking her into church services now and then... It doesn't always go well... She seems to be a fairly independent little girl.
Michael is still working of course. He has also become a trustee at church and recently an usher. He will actually usher this weekend again and was saying this will be the third weekend in a row that he's worn a suit to church...lol! He's such a wonderful daddy to our little girls. I'm so lucky to have him... and one day I know they'll realize how lucky they are too. We have been planning a lot for future changes. More on that to come.
I am still in my Thursday morning bible study, and enjoying that. I'm learning so much as we work through this study. It's an actual bible study, not so much a book study as I have done in the past. I also recently attempted P90X. It lasted one day, for 20 minutes. I'm not very proud of that, but plan to start back up on Monday. I'm not real happy with the way I look right now and need to do something about that. Wish me luck!
I think I've covered most everything... Everything I want to at this point anyway... And probably bored people to near coma... Sorry... This silly headache is not leaving me feeling very creative in the writing department.
18 minutes until my Spartans play basketball tonight.
Blessings
391. Strong willed independent children
392. A strong willed independent husband
393. Good food and fellowship over the weekend
394. The blessing of baptism
395. Sharing my home with family and friends
396. Lack of sleep due to 2 girls that want to sleep with mommy
397. Girls that can behave long enough for me to snooze for 30 minutes this afternoon
398. Good telephone conversations with good friends
399. Sitting here at 905pm on March 16th listening to the crickets with all the windows open
400. The beautiful forecast for tomorrow
There are things that I could go into, but because I'm not sure who reads this, I won't (at least not tonight). There are topics that I have plenty to say about, but because I have a headache that keeps on keeping on, I won't (at least not tonight).
Instead, I'll just give a run down --
We're having unseasonably warm weather, and I'm LOVING it! All 3 of the girls have been outside enjoying the sunshine. It's pretty awesome to see them playing together and laughing. I'm so excited for what this summer means to us. We have so much to look forward to and so much to be grateful for.
Kate, Lauren and Madeline were all baptized this last Sunday. It was a beautiful day. The girls totally cooperated. Awesome! We then had a houseful of people here for lunch, which turned into dinner as we all watched the MSU basketball team win the Big Ten title. It was a wonderful day!
Kate is still really enjoying preschool. We had our first parent/teacher conference and that went pretty well. She is very shy and doesn't talk very often, but her teacher is thinking she will outgrow that. She's a smart little girl. Such a blessing. I had the privilege of staying overnight in a sleep lab with her a couple of weeks ago (sense the sarcasm in privilege?). Her test came back positive for sleep apnea, so we have surgery scheduled to have her tonsils and adenoids removed. Poor little monkey. I'm sure she'll be a trooper though.
Lauren is blossoming as well. She's always cracking us up with her wild comments and actress-like moves. She's so animated and clever. She also seems to be testing limits and boundaries to see who is in charge. We're going through some growing pains in that area, but I'm sure we'll power through. We took Lauren and Kate to their first movie this past Tuesday. Lauren's nickname is Lorax (as in the book) and has been for quite some time... Now that the movie is out, we decided (with some coaxing from a friend) to take the girls. They had a BLAST! And I have to admit, Michael and I had just as much fun, if not more. If you haven't taken a little one to the movies, I highly recommend it. It's pretty exciting.
Madeline is crazy, crazy fun, but still crazy. She's really talking and developing so quickly. Her favorite phrase is "all done too" and she's always giving kisses and "ugs" (hugs). We went to the park this week and discovered that she's a total dare devil. She loved the swings, but loved the slides even more. She was up with the big girls on the twirly slide even. The bigger and faster the better. She's gonna be hilarious as she gets older. We have been experimenting with taking her into church services now and then... It doesn't always go well... She seems to be a fairly independent little girl.
Michael is still working of course. He has also become a trustee at church and recently an usher. He will actually usher this weekend again and was saying this will be the third weekend in a row that he's worn a suit to church...lol! He's such a wonderful daddy to our little girls. I'm so lucky to have him... and one day I know they'll realize how lucky they are too. We have been planning a lot for future changes. More on that to come.
I am still in my Thursday morning bible study, and enjoying that. I'm learning so much as we work through this study. It's an actual bible study, not so much a book study as I have done in the past. I also recently attempted P90X. It lasted one day, for 20 minutes. I'm not very proud of that, but plan to start back up on Monday. I'm not real happy with the way I look right now and need to do something about that. Wish me luck!
I think I've covered most everything... Everything I want to at this point anyway... And probably bored people to near coma... Sorry... This silly headache is not leaving me feeling very creative in the writing department.
18 minutes until my Spartans play basketball tonight.
Blessings
391. Strong willed independent children
392. A strong willed independent husband
393. Good food and fellowship over the weekend
394. The blessing of baptism
395. Sharing my home with family and friends
396. Lack of sleep due to 2 girls that want to sleep with mommy
397. Girls that can behave long enough for me to snooze for 30 minutes this afternoon
398. Good telephone conversations with good friends
399. Sitting here at 905pm on March 16th listening to the crickets with all the windows open
400. The beautiful forecast for tomorrow
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Day #39 - Another birthday
We celebrated another birthday in our house... Kate turned 5!!! I can not believe it!!!!! This whirlwind of a life is just flying by.
There are days that I really wish would hurry up and pass. Days when I've had 3 girls in time-out more than they've been out. Days when I've lost my cool and come to them apologizing for yelling. Days when I swear that the dirty dishes (and dirty laundry) will never end. Days of waiting for life to "just get on with it already", and leave me feeling more settled. Days that contentment has alluded me and depression seems to take over.
Then there are the other days. The days that, thankfully, I seem to be experiencing more and more often. Days that the girls play wonderfully together for hours while I fold laundry and actually get it put away where it belongs. Days that I get extra hugs and kisses and hear "You're the best mommy, EVER!". Days that the sun shines, the birds sing, and smiles are plentiful in our home. Days that Michael and I just sync and everything seems to fall into place. Days that meals are eaten, messes are cleaned up, screaming is minimal.
And as another birthday comes and goes - I realize that I really need to focus on those good days. I need to treasure the moments of adorable toddler- and preschool-ness that will only exist for a little bit longer. The days of diapers and bottles are quickly leaving me (not that I'm griping about that) and are being traded for barbies, and sequins, and lipstick (chapstick).
My girls are my testimony, my legacy, and they're amazing. They're little balls of wonder and thoughtfulness and beauty... Even when they're beating on each other, screaming, and fighting... ;-)
Blessings
381. Kate
382. Lauren
383. Madeline
384. Michael
385. Haircuts for the girls today
386. Sunshine!
387. Quiet alone time for Kate and I tonight
388. An amazing husband that has arranged his work schedule tomorrow to accommodate Kate's sleep study tonight.
389. Awesome deals
390. A dressing room experience that didn't leave me in a cold sweat
There are days that I really wish would hurry up and pass. Days when I've had 3 girls in time-out more than they've been out. Days when I've lost my cool and come to them apologizing for yelling. Days when I swear that the dirty dishes (and dirty laundry) will never end. Days of waiting for life to "just get on with it already", and leave me feeling more settled. Days that contentment has alluded me and depression seems to take over.
Then there are the other days. The days that, thankfully, I seem to be experiencing more and more often. Days that the girls play wonderfully together for hours while I fold laundry and actually get it put away where it belongs. Days that I get extra hugs and kisses and hear "You're the best mommy, EVER!". Days that the sun shines, the birds sing, and smiles are plentiful in our home. Days that Michael and I just sync and everything seems to fall into place. Days that meals are eaten, messes are cleaned up, screaming is minimal.
And as another birthday comes and goes - I realize that I really need to focus on those good days. I need to treasure the moments of adorable toddler- and preschool-ness that will only exist for a little bit longer. The days of diapers and bottles are quickly leaving me (not that I'm griping about that) and are being traded for barbies, and sequins, and lipstick (chapstick).
My girls are my testimony, my legacy, and they're amazing. They're little balls of wonder and thoughtfulness and beauty... Even when they're beating on each other, screaming, and fighting... ;-)
Blessings
381. Kate
382. Lauren
383. Madeline
384. Michael
385. Haircuts for the girls today
386. Sunshine!
387. Quiet alone time for Kate and I tonight
388. An amazing husband that has arranged his work schedule tomorrow to accommodate Kate's sleep study tonight.
389. Awesome deals
390. A dressing room experience that didn't leave me in a cold sweat
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Day #38 - Hoping
The thing about hoping... you never know how hard it'll be if and when things don't work out the way you hoped.
So, I find myself saying I'm not excited, I'm not anticipating anything extraordinary, I'm content with however everything works out, no expectations.
And then, when things fall through, I find myself in tears on the sofa.
So much for not getting ahead of myself huh?!?
How do we keep our emotions from getting the best of us? How can I keep my head on my shoulders and not in the clouds? How do people handle let downs and keep constant faith?
I can say I know God is in control. I do KNOW that. I can say things happen in God's time, not ours, and KNOW that is TRUTH.
For some reason though, sometimes, those truths don't keep my emotions in check.
My hopes, dreams, wishes, prayers... when I feel like they're not being attended to, the way I want them to be... I'm real quick to cry and/or get angry...
Is it a learned thing? I mean, will I ever get to the point that I can just accept things the way they are, even if it's not the way I'd like?
Man - my morning devotional was good today - but after the phone call I just received and all these thoughts running around in my head, I need to reread it!
God's time, not My time.
I'll get there. Eventually. I hope.
Blessings
371. 3 little girls helping me clean the house today
372. Hearing them playing instead of cleaning
373. Catching up with an old friend
374. Text messaging
375. Music channels on tv keeping me motivated
376. Lenten supper and service last night
377. Wonderful sermon
378. A weekend ahead with no plans
379. A soon to be 5 year old
380. Looking forward to spring after our 52 degree day yesterday
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